Hey there! Long time no see! I cannot even believe how busy things have been these last few months. Beyond. Just beyond. One of my (many) New Year’s resolutions was to blog weekly….we’ll see how that goes 😉
2013 in review:
Some highlights, for which I really have to praise Jesus, who has blessed me beyond measure:
I had a baby!!!! Yay for not being pregnant anymore, and double yay for a cutie pie to hold in my arms!! And triple yay for my mom coming to help…cuz I was a little bit overwhelmed (or a lot) at first. These things pretty much trump all other awesome things from last year. But, we had a couple of good trips: we went to San Diego for our “Babymoon,” we had interviews out West and subsequently have jobs there! A blessing in disguise: needing a doggy behavioralist for our little girl dog, whose nose was severely out of joint after Baby G was born and she was no longer Princess). Santa brought me a brand new DSLR camera for Christmas, and I am going to take some online photography classes with hubby. I just really want to capture each and every sweet moment with Baby G, and I can’t wait to do it! We’re gonna shoot for one class/week; it’s at our own pace. So, be on the lookout for much better pictures!
I had a tough bout of baby blues, and then followed by a tough case of mommy guilt. This was so terribly terribly hard for me to deal with, because I felt like I really had no right to feel sad or guilty, with a beautiful, healthy baby in my arms, a reasonably uncomplicated birth, and my loving husband and super helpful mother there to help me out. I was just sooo sooooo hard on myself for not instantly being the perfect mother. Additionally, I really let my in-laws put a damper on Baby G’s birth (and most of last year, for that matter). Prayers please. Additionally, when we went back down South Christmas, it was less a celebration and more a cleaning out of the aging/passed grandparent’s belongings/houses. In and of itself, this wouldn’t have been so hard, I don’t think, except that the last time we had been home was for G’ma and G’pa’s funerals…and my uncle’s funeral before that. I realized that I hadn’t made nearly as many happy memories at home in GA as I had sad ones in the last 3-5 years. It took a bigger toll on me than I realized, and it was a tough end to a tough year.
After assessing the year, I almost always have New Year’s resolutions, and mine this year are as follows:
1. Let go of the past, look to the future. We have had more than our share of interesting/awful extended family moments this year, but I think we are finally coming to terms with some of the unfortunate things that happened. Thank goodness, too- our marriage is better than ever. It’s much easier to live a normal life without someone criticizing your every move and decision behind your back, for both of us. Which brings me to my next resolution:
2. Stop trying to please everyone. If I hadn’t been so intent on needing to please everyone (which isn’t possible anyhow), I could’ve done what needed to be done a loooooong time ago- let those people go. So my first two resolutions are intimately connected to each other. I need to respect that people may have the right to their own opinions (of me), even if I don’t agree with them. I don’t need to fit into their ideals, either. I just need to do what’s best for my family and myself.
3. Stop feeling guilty about taking some “me” time. Sometimes I need some “me” time, just to keep my feeling like myself- but I have got to stop feeling guilty for it. I would tell any other new mom the same thing, so I need to listen to my own advice. No more mommy guilt.
4. Learn to accept myself as-is. I am blessed beyond measure, after all. God has found favor in me and my life, and I don’t need to be perfect to accept and be thankful for his blessings!
That’s about it! We are thankful for all that we learned in 2013, and ready for a brighter future in 2014! In a few short months, we will be done with our residencies, house shopping, moving out West, and starting our first real careers, so stay tuned! This will be a great year, I can just feel it! Happy New Year! 🙂